An overview

My film/animation is one of a simple nature.

The main character is myself. I am sitting on a chair. I stare straight in to the camera and point a gun to my head. I pull the trigger and the bullet penetrates my skull. My head proceeds to burst open from the opposite side. There is blood. Lot's of blood. The film ends.

The film will be shot in slow motion, with a poem being spoken over it.

The overall look of the film will be a sort of realistic one. I will need to take photographs of myself from different angles, model myself in Maya (based on the images) and generally make the character look as similar to myself as possible.

As for research, I will be looking in to blood, skull, skull structure, upper torso, hand guns and poetry. The main area of concern is showing development of research, as my main research will be photographs of myself. I'm not sure how I can develop 'myself'.

Thanks...

For nothing.

In a world where it is normal to willingly give away our social lives and sign away our rights, we have become obsessed with the digital world. We are essentially becoming post-human, in the way that we conduct ourselves in private and in public. I don't need to know if you have just 'taking a shit in your toilet', 'are watching a film with 'a', 'b' or 'c'... and I certainly don't need to know if you are hungover on a Sunday, when you should be in church praying to your 'God'. I used to be all this, and probably a shit tonne more, but I have realised that there is more to life than sending a picture of your lunch to the world via 1's and 0's.

I give up on people that moan and bitch about how hard their lives are on a daily basis. They don't realise that by merely having the ability to tell the world about their 'problems', they are extremely privileged. 'I don't have any money', 'I need a job'....blah blah fucking blah. Shut the fuck up, you are a sorry excuse for a human being.  

 

What if they internet never existed, mobile phones were never invented. Half of these fuck-wit textologists (text message scientists who can't use vowels or spell there/their/they're) wouldn't be able to structure a full sentence in a letter to tell their family of how hard 'life' is.

What I'm saying is, I get so worked up about the little things. I'm not really sure why but it may have to be with the fact that these binary munching fuck bags either:

• don't have any aspirations in life
• are happy to evolve in to a full slavering cabbage by the age of 40

or

•  feel pressured to 'fit in'

Fitting in. What if I don't want to fit in. Wait... scratch that. It's not about not fitting in, it's about being who you are. We are the total of everything and everyone that we have ever encountered. Whether you like it or not. That is the truth. If you encounter someone who has a mannerism you don't like, or someone who you don't like, you will, unknowingly try to not be like that said mannerism or said person. This is what I see on the magnificent 'internet'. I don't want to be like you. If I follow through on this project, and that's what it is, not just a film/animation, then I will lead a better life knowing that I can enjoy and share moments/adventures/experiences in their full glory, rather than taking a picture of it and not giving a fuck. Technology, sure, it has it's pros, but in a sense of people and networking, we have become zombies. Zombies are cool, but leave them in the movies.

Now you may be reading this and thinking, 'get to the point'.... but that's just it, there is no point in this. I'm just spurting ideas from my brain onto this keyboard.

Yes, I know, I'm a contradicting dick, but as part of my universities criteria, I have to have some sort of online blog/presence. Hmmm...

Who Am I?

My idea is a simple one. A man holds a gun to his head and pulls the trigger.

• 'A bullet of conscious objection spits from an ever revolving gun.'
• 'Penetrating the mind of he who does not conform to 'normality'.'
• 'He exists, but does not know why.'
• 'As the bullet sears through his mind, it explains to him all that is.'
• 'Motionless, the end has come. But for who? You, or I?'
  
  
  
  
  This is my film.